Symptoms of Having a Zero-Love life (As if being single is a disease or having a failed grade in a subject)

1. Increase in weight due to over-eating 2. Movie addict (no romance, please!) 3. Prolonged sleeping time, even during class hours 4. Excessive reading of dark fantasy novels and mangas 5. Digging emo / punk-rock music (Typecast, anyone?) 6. Imagining yourself to be the director / producer / lead actor/actress of your own love story, though you are too shy to admit it even to yourself 7. Drinking beer every Thirst-days (not because you are lonely, but because you are too numb to feel anything that you have to drown your heart with beer so as to feel a bit happy, if not sad) 8. Smoking ever after meal, especially after dinner 9. Learning new skills like cooking, ironing clothes, and doing laundry 10. Treating every short quiz and home work like a final exam and thesis 11. Talking to yourself and singing while taking a shower 12. DotA addict (yeah boy!) 13. Animě addict (Naruto, Bleach, Gundam…etc.) 14. Having suicidal tendencies, autocannibalism, corporal mortification, etc. (these are, of course, for exaggerated cases only) 15. Resorting to writing nonsense articles such as this one whenever you’re being haunted by loneliness, and even envy. Being single is not that bad. But I must concede that having a special someone this Valentine to share your happiness with is far better off than being alone. Yet there are really some people who are more comfortable alone than being with somebody else. It’s not that they are being cynical or self-centered. They just prefer being unhappy at times than being burdened with the troubles of having a relationship. Or maybe they just don’t have time? Yeah, whatever.

I n my quiet moments a part of a song from my early years often intrudes into my thoughts and make my realization that life is but a dream.

Good or bad, it will soon go away. Yes, for we are born without a guarantee that anything will be a permanent.

cute one

love

i love the beach, the sunset and the you =)

Life is what we make it

" The Biggest tragedy of all is for a day to be the same as the one before it and several decades after, and only because we too scared or timid to vary the tempo or make it any different"


Life is what we make it, the way it is such a precious gift. Yes, we should those moments when problems are arises and solved, blessings are celebrated. These moments come to those people who make tough decisions during tough times.Those who lurk rather than live miss the chance to make chance happen. Those who smirk rather than charge on never run out of comments because life to them is a theory left or braver souls to test.

And so I say to you, my dear, choose a song you always wanted to sing and belt it out.

We cannot control the wind and the march of time would proceed regardless of how we woke up this morning. But we have full control of our lives and it is for us to make!

my life of signs

Signs direct and control my life especially my social life. Yet signs take life through our recognition of them-- they have meaning , only because we know their meaning, that is, when we are aware that they are affecting our consciousness of reality.

Last Friday, I go home to my home town in Ilocos. I rode a bus at exactly 5:30pm though I was there at exactly 2:30pm. Can you just imagine how hard to rode a bus? I fall in line in order to get a stab ticket. While standing for 3 hours, I saw a bracelet near beside me, it's just a simple rosary bracelet. I bought it then I keep it. After a while,finally I get a stub for me. I rode the bus then we go. In the road lot of signs I saw, like "slow down prone area accident etc." I observe that the bus is getting a lil bit fast so I got nervous then, But when I saw the bracelet All worries gone coz for me it signifies safety, we all do is to trust to Him.

Whether in the poem or in the street, a symbol clarifies linkage between ideas and objects, between the parts and the whole. When Robert Frost is saying in " Stopping By Woods on a Snowy evening" that the woods are lovely, dark and deep/But i hane promises to keep/And miles togo before i asleep.

one of the best among the rest

boy..

I met this boy in 10th grade.

He didn’t know I had a crush on him until one day I told him. His parents sent him off to Military School.

I haven’t seen him in 4 months. Last month, he told me he liked me back and I was the only girl for him.

Today, he was knocking at my door asking me if I still had a crush on, while kneeling with a ring. His LGMH.

nothing...

happy weekends! on ilocos today, ang init! hehehe!

my teddies

Introducing my teddies, on my left is named Greyzella, and next to her is Greylu! Hehehe! I have monkey too named mon!hahaha! that’s it for today!

My best friend’s Birthday today!

Lizette, my long time best friends in college is celebrating her birthday today! Aww.. she’s 20 years old na? hehehe! Anyways, I wanna great her a happy happy birthday! I hope all things she made in the past will serve as her lesson all through her life. I believe in him and I know she has a good future too. I just missed her every time since she stop studying because she got pregnant at very young age. She is my best friend though sometimes we get angry with each other, in her I feel and I really know what the word FRIEND really means. And today also is the birthday of my favorite signer, non other than miss Demi Lovato!
Still on my bed enjoying the sound of the rain. Just the way I like it,it is too much to ask for tunder! Hehe!

Problem or Solution?

Im facing with a big problem, what is this? Hmmm.. its about my subject. I got very low on the first quiz as if I did not study! Too bashful on my part! Aww! I don’t know but, maybe Im just the type of student who really weak when it comes to probability and normal distribution? My god! Im scared to fail this midterms so what am gonna do is to study in advanced. I won’t let this happen!
Ready for a long week vacation
Today is Friday. And good thing its holiday! I love it! I will the opportunity home to ilocos and visit my family. Its been three years before my last visit. I quite excited and quite nervous. I wake up early. Around 3:45 in the morning, Im now awake. I do the laundry first them after that Im now here on front of my laptop updating my sites. I enjoy this kind of moment. I enjoy the silence of my environment and the people around. I enjoy the company of myself, my pillow and my teddies! Haha! Mind you they are my best friends. Going back, Im planning to buy lansones as my pasalubong to my family? What do you think? Too cheap? I don’t have money anyway. Sigh! Hopefully I can go home today later at 1pm. We have consultation first at 12:30. Im preparing myself to some of the kind heat! During the weekends. Im planning to visit my lola and all my cousins my mother side if ever I have enough time. I just missed them all. I remember my last homecoming, it’s not good, because im sick before totally sick and bed ridden, but now, as you all see, totally healed and totally beautiful! Proud! Do they missed me too? I think a big big YES! Especially my aunties. Quite scared because of the vehicular accident happened yesterday. So morbid and breath taking. But even though, I still believe that GOD is GOOD all the time and He is there all the time!

In just a split of a second

It was Wednesday morning; I was busy reviewing my notes in biostatistics while hearing my favorite drama in radio station when breaking newsbreak the line. The flash report said that a vehicular accident was happened in one road of Baguio City. Quite shock and got nervous asking myself if what is the name of that bus. Then after a while, the reporter said it was esonice bus. According to the news, the mini bus fell down on rocky cliff of mountain. So morbid because 41 of the passenger were died and only few survived.
Maybe, it is an accident or mechanical break down because nobody wants accident right? One lesson I have learned that, we should value the presence of our love ones every time because we do not know in just spilt of a second they gone.
We should not blame everybody, even God, because nobody wanted it!

Coming back with a great smile on my face

After a long busy day. Now I have enough time to update my blog and my tumblr as well. For the past weeks, nothing happens new. It’s just an ordinary day. Im quite sad because about my father because he got sick before, but now he’s ok. What else? Nothing’s new! I just quite surprise when one of my friend ask me something. Well, just being honest. Im enjoying the company of my friends though they are very far.

Weekend is over. I had a great weekend so far,kahit na puro away kame ni maya. Masaya parin!
0n the other part, im so sad, becAuse my papa is sick. I h0pe he'l be ok t0m0rrow. For n0w, im revewing my n0tes ing U.S..

Weekend is over. I had a great weekend so far,kahit na puro away kame ni maya. Masaya parin!
0n the other part, im so sad, becAuse my papa is sick. I h0pe he'l be ok t0m0rrow. For n0w, im revewing my n0tes ing U.S..

Good morning!
New day,new lesSon,and New me!hehe!

time to say ''goodbye'',sad but i have to. You push me to do this,and n0w,here it is. Be it!. U kn0w im n0t bitter,oNly better! Takecare always. Thank y0u for all. See you when i see y0u again. ONe biG HUG only just for y0u. Bye my only bestfriend,till we meet again.

this i promise you my friend, i may forget u,but deep inside,youre still the one,.

bye

this will be the last time, Lord i promise. thank you and Im sorry for my attitude.

"Hard To Say"

The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear, her fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried

It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone, it's not the same

My worries weigh the world, how I used to be
And everything, I'm cold, seems a plague in me
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried

It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone, it's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone, it's not the same

Worse than the fear it's the lie you told a thousand times before
Worse than a fear it's the knife
But it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried

It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone, it's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone, I'm not the same
It's hard to say (God, it's hard to say)
Since you've been gone,
I'm not the same

">si bestfriend mon at si gracee!


















">To my favorite teacher
told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I've missed and the girls we've kissed
Where are you now

To my ex-best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite band
Sing along in my car
To the face I see in my memory
Where are you now

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
Didn't show it enough
Where are you now

Where are you now
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know
I won't forget you

To the ones who came
Who we're there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
They'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be how I am
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

ilang oras na ang kanyang hinihintay. Kahit na alam niyang ang bAwat minuto ay tila sampung ta0n kung lumipas.

ilang oras na ang kanyang hinihintay. Kahit na alam niyang ang bAwat minuto ay tila sampung ta0n kung lumipas.

the place i want to visit again

here here

after all, here I am now… thanks for being there. i know all things happen for a reason..

M0m and dads anniversary

sad c0z im n0t at h0me.. I misd them s0 much!.. But, just be happy!

to my mom,
thanks for being my mom, im so lucky to have you! i love you so much! All i can do for you..

to my dad,
thanks for being a great and wonderful dad to us.. i love you so much!! we are so lucky to have a father like you!

Totally grown, totally healed! Thanks GOD! =) August 6, 2010

Totally grown, totally healed! Thanks GOD! =) August 6, 2010
Last night August 5, 2010, I sleep early after I ate my dinner. Why? Nothing, I just want to rest. Hehe! So, it’s good morning again world! Welcome to new adventures and lessons!
I feel better now compared yesterday and the other day. Thanks God! I experience influenza the past few days that’s what makes me sick badly that even concentrations in my quizzes I cant do.
I rest the whole day of Wednesday coz I cannot really make it to go with the Cumavanana, my group to do our thesis at ella,s house. After that day, I can feel more better and better now, as if nothing happens foe the past few days. I can now smile a lil bit larger up to my ears! Haha! i love it!
Today is another new day to live. It will again add our life’sjourney. Its sunny day today I hope so! I hate rains especially during afternoons! Haha! I really hate it!
Till this quote “Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may happen. Keep in the sunlight”
I love you!

August 5, 2010

A memorable day! August 5, 2010
Today is the birthday of our sexy, kind, nice and intelligent teacher in ultrasound non other than Dr. Michellen Galang! Fashionista din pala siya.. Nakakainggit siya, kasi she looks so beautiful and sexy! Hehe! W e surprise her with a cake plus 8 candles! Yehey1 panalung panalo! Aun, at first all we know she will not arrived coz she comes late! Hehe!Napasaya naming si doktora! Ang doktora naming pinakamamahal! Weee! At hindi lang yan, kumanta ang mga talentado at hindi talentado! Hehe1 siyempre masayang Masaya ang aming klase! At Masaya si doktora. Bilang handog din nya saamin, kumanta din siya! Hehe! Ang galling galling galling nyang kumanta! “ever after” ! That’s what makes this day special and memorable and happy to the highest level!hehe! I love this day! I love you doktora and happy happy birthday! I wish you all the best!

What is new?
Well, nothing? Is new about me today only thing is that I am quite busy for the few days after the examination. After days of reviewing all over my notes, it finally ends. Hehe! And you know Im happy! Why? Because I have high grades for prelims. That is why Im super duper happy for the past few days in spite of the busy schedule and the thesis that makes us the CUMAVANANA my group stressed all the time. What else? Hmmm, today? I’m sick! Sigh! However, nothing to worry about, Im ok and I’ll be fine. Last Saturday, my mom visited us again here in Baguio, it such a good and happy Sunday bonding to us. But of course I will be more happier if all my family members are with me here. However, of course that is impossible to happen unless I go home! =) Well that is new about me. Happy and sometimes sad. Because of some things happens against my will. In addition, let us just accept that we cannot appease all people right? True! There are some, which are too insensitive and unkind. Anyway, it is not the time for me to talk about those things coz they ruins my day! Im leaving you with a smile!

At ellas h0use